Have you ever heard of the saying "Happiness is like perfume...you spray a little on others and get some on yourself in the process"?
This saying by some wise old/young anonymous dude/dudette has kept me going for many, many years. Whenever I'm sad, I seek others who need help; who are sad, and in the process of bringing joy to their lives, I feel my heart lift up as well. That is why I need to serve. I don't think I could be happy just serving myself forever.
Furthermore, I'm learning not to worry so much. I'm learning to just trust God; to have faith and not be Peter walking on water besides Jesus; to be rebuked by the savior: "You of little faith." I have never wholeheartedly trusted God in any situation before, yet God is good. I have never completely believed that he would save me during a crisis...I knew, or I believed, that it is always up to me; the individual; the independent...oh the strong independent girl- I got to take care of myself. No. Footprints on the sand...God walks with me and carries me when I fall...when I am dry, He fills my cup...when I am weak, He is my strength.
I need to trust God with my worries; especially the little ones that get in the way of my path or my purpose in life. It is hard to think about recruiting students for NSWN when my mind is filled with "What kind of scheme will my crazy ex-roommate concoct next?" It is hard to put God first when I'm thinking "How can I survive on just $40 in my bank for the next week or so?" It is hard to concentrate on DT's when I'm thinking "What if I get kicked off Blueprint Leadership because I am unable to find time to paint their 'leadership cabinet'?" Now..."How do I get my package back- the one delivered to an imposter pretending to be me?"and "Will I be able to move in, get my apartment cleaned and ready before school starts or before Betty comes back?"...What if? How is this possible?...Why me?...What's next...? How do I approach this issue...? Little, miniscule worries that are like flies that go "bbzzzzzzzzzzzz" next to my ear every time I try to focus. I can't concentrate.
But I know now all I have to do is breathe and pray... in the morning before the day starts; before things start to get hectic. Because I know then God will be there beside me and then guide me through.
God is good.
Thank you Father.
Love,
Lily
Friday, August 22, 2008
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2 comments:
Hey Lily! Stop worrying yourself to death. And with moving and everything, I will definitely help you. And if you get hungry or anything, you can always come over for some food as well, especially since you live across the street now! If you need help with your ex-roommate, you can always find help to deal with the things she comes up with, especially since some of them are cutting it close with the law. WE'RE ALWAYS HERE TO HELP!!!
I definitely agree with you. I find it really hard to turn to God in difficult times. But that's something I've been working on too. And it's amazing the comfort He provides through the Bible and through fellowship with our precious brothers and sisters. I hope we'll all be able to put more trust in God and others!
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