These days I can't concentrate on my studies. Actually I haven't been able to concentrate ever since the semester started. I'm getting my mid-terms back, and although they're not horrible...I used to do better. I've always had this problem with the idea of working "too" hard at something. Back in High School, I calculated my degree of "hard work" so well that I never spent more time than was necessary to achieve a good grade; which really meant if straight A's can be consisted of a bunch of 89.9% then that's exactly what I'm getting. Sure my GPA may have been higher than a 3.8 + throughout high school, but if they were represented by percents, more than 80% of the A's were 89.9%'s. I just never worked hard at anything (well...except for AP Chemistry...which I tried to get a 100%...but then I got distracted by this anime that just came out during that time...). Funny thing is...it was hard work making sure I didn't work too hard at something...>.< kinda sad eh?
I wish I knew how to work hard! That was such a stupid sentence. I feel guilty every time I take a break in my studies to do something totally wasteful and totally meaningless like surf the internet or watch a movie or drool at people's artwork on deviantart when I could instead call up a friend and SPREAD the gospel!!.......no. See?! Aish I'm a lost case.
I once knew a friend who practiced 8 hours on the piano EVERY DAY! (for 2 months!) 0_0 in order to win this competition. This means monotonous repetition of the same song over and over and over and over and over and over...need I say more? How do people do that?! How does one have the willpower to do that...the stamina...the tenacity....the abandoning of all pleasure and other activities to live and breathe PIANO?!
Life offers too many distractions. It's hard to focus. I can't read Statistics without thinking of this cartoon that I want to watch or this painting I want to paint or this career I want to pursue or Gracepoint's upcoming events or getting a private tour at Dreamworks Studio!! or this food I really really want to eat or this blazer I'm dying to buy (I hope they have it in my size) or randomly thinking of Psalm 23 or the Genesis and how scary God can be in the old testament....and...and ....and ARGHH! Oh kill me.
Will someone please teach me how to focus? No. I need to learn that on my own. -Cries- That's the hard part...and I hate the word "hard"! Oh Brett...and Alex Harris...how do you guys "do hard things"? ....
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
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Concentration... i've always wondered if it's something trained x] No, actually i think it is. No question about it x] Anyone born with the ability to concentrate? doubt so... Bah, it's just takes practice... practice concentrating? yah x] and just get to the point that you can make yourself concentrate when you need to... bah x] i'm babbling about this 2am in the morning when i should've been asleep hahah x] thanks for teh post tho.. encouraged me to practice focus more often x]
ps: i have interesting word verification: oblesses
doesn't it sound like o - blesses as in o - blessing? hahahaha k.. it's late x]
Hope you have fun at TC! i expect videos or at least pics from someone x] and some shameful accounts of unknown people on stage x] hahhaha :]
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